I've been wracking my brain trying to figure out how to write this post, trying to find something encouraging for those of you out there who will be experiencing a childless Mother's Day. In just a few hours, I'm due to go to church where I'm sure they will make some sort of statement about today [...]
It’s been nearly eight months since I’ve started recording my infertility journey and each post I’ve written has taken me to a place of sorrow that I can no longer go. I promise to someday comb back through the painful details of these last few months, but I cannot now. I’m holding tight to what [...]
I know my last blog post read pretty hopeless. It was a true record of this experience. Some days I forget all about our almost baby. Some days pass quickly and quietly, and I am thankful for them. The last few days have been a bit that way. I've been feeling decent today, though Monday [...]
I've been avoiding this. I've come up with every excuse in the book as to why I don't have time, energy, want, and on and on to write. The truth is I'm tired. I'm exhausted and defeated. And that's not really the kind of story people like to tell. But since I don't have any [...]
I've made a choice, as we all do, what would be my "North Star" as I've journeyed through infertility. I've chosen frustration. I've chosen disappointment. I've chosen anger. I've chosen loss. It has been an easy choice, as the wrong ones usually are. With every negative pregnancy test, with every incorrect ovulation test, with every doctor [...]
Let us hold fast the confession of our hope without wavering, for he who promised is faithful. Hebrews 10:23 Today is a day of bliss, a day where I can not dismiss or avoid or forget the abundance that God has given me. To be honest, I've been trying to forget God's goodness. Between my [...]
This week Anthony and I were told that we will not be able to get our house for at least another year in order for Anthony's credit score to recover. I'll explain and keep it brief to avoid fixating. About two months ago, we found out that there were several misreported/missed payments for his old car [...]
The Messy Middle 