A few weeks ago now, my husband said goodbye to his grandfather, Grandpa Tony—Anthony's namesake.He passed at the age of 91 in his home in Montana, the place that had long held his heart. Last summer, Anthony, the boys (Ollie in womb), my in-laws, and I went out to Montana to visit the place where [...]
A few weeks ago, I decided to delete all my social media apps. My husband and I were managing pretty well, all things considered, navigating the challenges of COVID-19. Then, when George Floyd was murdered—the already precarious situation our society was in combusted into chaos. I, like many others, wanted to get and stay “informed.” [...]
This isn't how it was supposed to be. I think as I stare into my newborn son's eyes. This wasn't the plan. The nearly foot long cut line across my abdomen still aches when I've been lifting Theo and Noah too much. I still soak through my shirts with milk because I forgot to pump [...]
We are failing our families, America. We are failing our mothers. Our fathers. Our children. We are failing our future and the ramifications are evident across the nation. Why do we live in such a time of turmoil? Because the heart of society, our families, are being torn apart limb by limb, piece by piece. [...]
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“I’m not ready,” I said to my husband and even though it doesn’t surprise him, it does me. After going through infertility, you’d think the prospect of birthing our two boys would’ve been something I’d anticipated and prepared for. But it wasn’t. I was terrified. I was scared of the pain. I was scared of [...]
Happiest of transfer-versaries to my little munchkins. Two years ago you were my single, hatching embaby. After two years of failed pregnancy tests, two failed cycles of chlomid, and a failed IUI, we hung so much hope on this tiny little spec of DNA. After having my polypectomy two months before and having to push [...]
I’m just going to start by saying, God has been good. I mean so so good to us. He always is, of course, but we have been seeing abundant blessing from Him in this season.
Over two years ago, I was sitting in the waiting room of our fertility clinic. It was one of the 14 days of consecutive blood draws and ultrasounds during the egg retrieval phase. They do this to check your hormone levels and see if your follicles are numerous enough and large enough to "trigger" the [...]
When we moved here, not too long ago, we did so in haste. After being married only a short while, the walls of our previous residence were quickly closing in. Our rooms were filled to the tip top—or at least that’s how it felt. We moved in and everything we had became so small in [...]
The Messy Middle 