I know my last blog post read pretty hopeless. It was a true record of this experience. Some days I forget all about our almost baby. Some days pass quickly and quietly, and I am thankful for them. The last few days have been a bit that way.

I’ve been feeling decent today, though Monday and Tuesday were rife with some of the most dizzying stomach pains I’ve felt in a long time. Sometimes, even a small victory is enough to keep the flame warm.

Anthony and I are quickly approaching our six year dating anniversary in June. What an adventure it has been and, while most of my posts have been concerning our struggles, God has certainly blessed me with inexplicable and undeserved happiness that our relationship has brought me.

Today I wanted to write like this. I wanted to talk about all of the things I’m grateful for, not because I do not know it, or don’t appreciate it, or have forgotten it, but because sometimes it’s just right to be thankful.

I won’t list every single thing that comes to mind, just a few big ones.

1. My marriage and how comforting my husband always is
2. My parents and the strength I draw from them
3. My siblings (and siblings in law) and their prayers and compassion
4. My nieces and the joy that comes from being their Nana
5. My God, and for all the work I know He is doing in my life
6. My job, that challenges and grows me every day
7. My boss, who respects, appreciates, and invests in me
8. My location, working across the street from Anthony gives me a constant place to run when I have a hard day or when I just want a midday date 🙂
9. My health, while it’s been rocky, certainly, I have moved from having more bad than good days to the other way around. I remember filling out my first “pain” form and it asked how many days I experience pain in a month. I answered 20/30, now it’s more like 8-10/30 on a fairly manageable diet.
10. Anthony’s health insurance that covers almost all of several rounds of fertility treatment. Most insurance providers don’t cover any of it, so we had previously planned on all treatment being out-of-pocket. That huge financial weight has certainly been lifted.
11. Finally finding a fertility clinic that accepts our insurance. Again, not all fertility clinics accept all insurances and not all insurances accept all clinics. Make sure you do a lot of research before jumping in (learned that the hard way).
12. My friends who have helped keep my faith in tact regardless of how hard I’ve tried not to.
13. My little bunny rabbits. Though they still haven’t decided to work things out with each other, I get to benefit from their affection (kind of).

Anyway, those are the things on my heart right now. I know all good things come from God. He is a good God, even if I don’t want to admit it right now.